Oh ALLAH. hari yang sungguh menenangkan dan penuh cinta dari-NYA.
yeap. today is one of my unforgettable day i guess. which i found the way that i have looking and searching for so long!
lain kan perasaan tu bila benda yang kita cari, yang kita blur, yang buat kita gusar, tidak tenang, and suddenly, benda tu ada depan mata, and u say, 'this i what i want! this is what i need!'. that motivation feeling, that spiritt, uhhh.. only you know how it feels~
yah, today i got motivations from two person, one, that i love, and two, that i dislike.
sejak kenal tahun 2009, this guy always help me to be a better muslimah. always! even bila kenal dia pun, i was questioned, why is he so religious like this? dia nampak biasa, tapi ada umph! ahha. begitu lah lebih kurang. and last night, we talked. about many things! many things. a long conversation we had. macam-macam aku dapat from him. and that's what i want. benda yang aku perlukan complete dalam setiap penjelasan dia. aku tertanya, kenapa? dan bila dia bagi jawapan, dari satu jawapan ada lagi tambahan kepada kenapa dan kenapa itu. Oh ALLAH! and i am so grateful. this guy never disappoint me whenever i ask such questions. selalu bantu aku. syukur...
ya, memang aku sayang dia. tapi sayang tu lain. dulu lain. sekarang lain. dulu cerita lain, sekarang cerita lain. tapi seriously memang aku bersyukur kenal dia walaupun ada kenangan pahit antara kami, but past is past.
sekarang aku kena focus pada apa yang aku mahu, apa yang aku kejar, inshaaALLAH :)
and last night, aku menangis. bila dia tulis jawapan-jawapan tu, mostly aku reply dengan emoticon saja. sebab aku nangis dan terlalu malu bila tahu kenyataan dan reality hidup sebagai seorang perempuan ni. and at the end, dia macam buat lawak, mungkin dia tahu aku nangis betul-betul agaknya...so dia saja mau buat aku x sedih.. kot.. huhu
dan from the one i dislike pulak, haha, ya dulu memang aku tak suka 'this person'. sebab dia main cakap lepas. but i have no reason to hate her actually because i don't know her! but today, during that meeting this morning, baru aku tau dia ni macamana orangnya. the way she talk, how she talk, her spirit, and everything.. now dislike turned to like. i think i will like her a lot! a lot :)
be positive. and love people :)
and this Friday, will be among the sweetest Friday ever inshaaALLAH :)
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